Apena update

We had 3 alarms yesterday morning.

& 1 this morning.

I don't know if maybe after sleeping for so long it is hard for her to adjust to being up, or what it is.

But, depending on how you look at it, this is a good thing!

It really isn't bothering her to be hooked up to it.  I think it is harder for Brandon & I, to see her all hooked up to a machine. But, I am getting used to it & beginning to get a hang of getting around with it; & most of all not tripping on the freaking long cord while walking. UGH.

on a side note, dressing her with these stupid wires is so hard. Sleepers are the easiest, but if I use the zipper kind the wire comes out from the top & she just pulls on it. It all around just annoying.

27 days to go!

1/29

First night down

no alarms

she stopped breathing but not long enough to sound an alarm

{this is great news}

the alarm goes of after 20 seconds

which seems wayyyyyyyyyyyy to long to me. 

1 night down 29 to go

keep the prayers comin!

 By the way Kennedy is 10 weeks today! We are now in double digits! She growing so big right before my eyes!

*update*

as of 8:45 this morning & the hour past we are up to 3 alarms.

no words

not what I expected

Well, we went to the dr today for Kennedy's toe like I mentioned in my last post.

I dont know if you can see but it is the left big toe.

I had a few other things I wanted to talk to him about, that I didn't want to wait til the 2nd for her wellness exam.

 So the exam starts, first she is weighed a whooping 12lbs 7 oz! 

He looked are her little piggy, says we need a ointment  to put on it for 4-6 weeks & let the nail grow out then file it, not cut.

still happy even at her appt.

Then I ask about her breathing, at her last wellness, I asked the nurse if the gasping noise she was making was ok/normal. She said yes & it was just her getting stardelled.

But, then about 2 or so week ago it started she would stop breathing, mostly a few min into sleep but also when awake, but I chalked it up to being stardelled. Why I haven't mentioned it? I was in denial. NOTHING can be wrong with my baby...or so I told my self.

So, I brought it up very non-chalant me thinking he would say it was no big deal. WRONG. She did it in front of him. & he was very concerned. 

To cut to the chase, Kennedy gets her apnea monitor {she going to hate to be hooked up to anything} this evening when home healthcare comes to the house & will explain the get up & what to do ect.

If it isn't apnea then it will be Sandift Syndrome ultimately this is the diagnosis we want, well we don't want either but we have no choice. At least in my eyes. To sum up Sandift for you it is when reflux keeps her from breathing. & can be corrected with some zantax & sleeping upright-ish. & apnea there isn't really a medication to help. & infant apnea can be very scary.

This is all very frightening, her dr ended the appt asking if I knew Infant CPR, which I do I have been a Pre-K teacher in previous years. But, thought of using it...on my child? Terrifying.

"mom, that dr's hands are wayy to cold"

The only thing about all of these is she is stopping breathing, & the "episodes" are getting longer. Which is extremely scary. I have been a wreck, nothing is supposed to happen to my baby :(

Hopefully this monitor will give the dr some insight onto what is going on so we can rule out one or the other, or if not either go on for further testing so we know what is going on with my bug.

& the thing is the past two nights, I have told Brandon I just had a "feeling' something wasn't right with her breathing, I didn't know what but I kept checking her a thousand times the last 2 nights. I guess god gives us mommas these intuitions for a reason.

the weekend

I am day late on the weekend review BUT...This weekend was fun & busy! Friday, Brandon & I went out on our first date night, since buggy! I haven't left her for more than just over an hour & when I have I am less than fun to be around. All I can think about is her, what's she doing ect ect. So, I promise to be tons of fun & try not to dwell on being away from her...to much ;)

We started the night off @ Reb Lobster, YUM! It was odd to eat a whole meal in one seating, instead of increments. Bug seems to always want me as soon as the fork gets about a inch from my mouth haha. We stopped at a gas station where I cheated & called my mom asking how she was & to send me a picture, while Brandon went in. She was fine, sound a sleep in he nana's arms. I was just worried she would be really fussy for her, since she has been not able to sleep long with her teething, poor baby. But, "she was fine".

Next stop was a comedy club, it was so so fun. They have a 2 drink minimum there, I was somewhat freaking out A) because I rarely drink & haven't had more than maybe a drink since we start TTC over a year ago B) helllooo, I have a baby to take care of tonight. I ended up getting a drink that was in jar which counted as 2, & luckily wore off by the time we picked her up! The two comedians were HILAROUS. The last comic did alot of children & marriage which had us crackin up!

Saturday was full for me, I had to shoot 2 family session; so I was yet again away from my baby. (insert sad face with big lip) & Sunday I had another, I got to shoot two beautiful twins but, they were friends of ours so we got to bring baby, had pizza & got to talk about the baby-life. The twins are just shy of 6 weeks older than Kennedy, & the friends we went out with Friday either had no kids or older kids, so that was refreshing to have those conversations with them :)

Hope you all enjoyed ya'lls weekend as well!

are you ready for some football?

or lack there of? now that "our team" is def not in the playoffs. Not that we thought we were going to be; we played HORRIBLY.  Kennedy never got to wear her Bengals attire for 0-3. So we re-enacted how a game went this season with her for some pictures in her outfit. I personally thought she looked like a boy, but as always I placed a big ol flower on her head ;) problem solved!

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